Every heart has a pain. Only the way of expressing it is different. Fools hide it in eyes, while the brilliant hide it in their smile. I know it’s hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. We always thought we’d look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we’d look back on our laughter and cry.

There are times that I hate myself because I’m so afraid to do the things that I know I can. I just don’t find the word, how will I tell my feelings for him because I’m afraid to be rejected. So I pretend and hid my true feelings every time he’s near and talking to me ‘cus I don’t have the assurance that he will like me too. I know I’m weak! because I don’t express it in actions. It’s just me, the part of me that I really hate the most! If I could be tough. If I could be beautiful. If I could be the girl that everybody’s like. If I could be the one why girls get jealous. If I could be perfect but I am not. I’m tired of pretending that I didn’t hurt. To fake a smile. To pretend that everything’s okay, but deep inside not only my eyes but also my heart wants to cry.